Feel stupid for being sad

A few months ago a good friend of mine asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding. At the time I had a newborn and my husband and I were both still out of work or had our hours cut due to COVID.

I thanked her for asking me, but politely told her that I wasn’t in a financial or mental place to be in the wedding party, but would still love to help anyway I could and of course still go to the wedding.

She was so supportive and nice about it and nothing has changed about our friendship.

This past weekend was the bachelorette party and bridal shower. I did go to the shower and had a great visit with her and had fun.

Now all the girls are sharing pictures of the weekend and I feel so much regret not saying yes to being a bridesmaid now. They look like they had such a fun time, and it would have been a great time to take a day off from moming.

I feel stupid for being sad because I sad no and I chose not to participate.

She’s the last of my friends to get married too, so I’ll never get the chance to be a bridesmaid again.

I just wish I could go back and say yes. 😔