The reason why I don’t trust men

Hey ladies I made a post back in June. The title was how soon does it take for a gf/bf to tell each other they love you? Well my idk what he is to me anymore he tells me directly on June 21st he loved me. He’s a grown 31 year old he should know the difference between I love you and lusting. Ik I do... well that day he told me he loved me I had went down on him due to my menstruation being on we couldn’t do anything the vaginal way. I went all out as usual just because he was leaving to drive trucks with his sister. Long story short he was gone approximately 3 long weeks. He told me how he couldn’t wait to get back home and sex me good and all that. I notice the word love never popped back up. I didn’t quite use it because I don’t mean it. I like him a lot. I lust over him. I don’t love him. That’s a huge difference. Anyways he asked me before he got home could we get a hotel room I said yeah. Catch was he owes me money he suppose to had gave me the money I let him borrow for some bill. Well he wanted me to pay for a room. Luckily my boss at work told us we have to work this pass Saturday morning. Well now it’s Thursday night he finally in his home town. Friday morning rolls around I asked him what’s his plan he says oh yeah it’s my daughter bday and she wants me to spend the day with her. I didn’t mention that my boss told everyone in the warehouse that we didn’t have to work Saturday morning due to one line being shut down. I love when a guy spend time with his child/or children. I mentioned it the next day though. Then he says I could’ve told him I wasn’t working Saturday morning and he would’ve seen me Friday. Well I told him naw I wanted you to spend time with your daughter. I told him I’m not selfish like that. I said hopefully we’ll see each other one day though. Then he hits me with when I leave again I’ll make sure I see you before I leave. See we don’t communicate well. He just ups and tell me stuff at the last minute. Saturday he told me we moving way to fast and it’s a lot of stuff going on in his life.

Honestly to me that sounds like he’s becoming uninterested in me. Seems like he trying to leave me alone. And I asked him that. He says I never said anything about leaving you alone smh.

But like I told him this isn’t the first time he’s said it. He have mentioned it before hand. He’s the one telling me oh I like you so much... oh I love you and then said he’ll explain it. Now he’s saying tbh idk if I love you but I like you. He’s always saying we moving to way and he has a lot going on. He’s been becoming distant like he would say he doesn’t want to talk to me at times. He’ll ignore me for 2 straight days. I just like him a lot but I think I’m just gonna disappear and not give him no explanation. This is what he’s doing to me this is how I feel. I told him I wouldn’t never leave someone struggling that I like.

Ladies am I wrong? I tried being understandable. I told him I’m a good female I just don’t understand a man mindset.