Mom self care

This may be a little long cause I’m just sharing my thoughts & something I really want to push into myself going forward so thank you if you take your time to reading & sharing your thoughts as well :)

I’m a 23 year old mom, my partner and I started dating at 15 lived with eachother from day one. I grew up in a very toxic, abusive & neglectful home, I didn’t struggle with my body image until I have my first daughter currently pregnant with baby #2 in which we begged for it took two years for us to have another, our first just turned 5 and is heading to kindergarten how exciting.

I struggle a lot with anxiety & depression to wear I constantly shoot myself down without noticing, days I feel like a bad mom because my anxiety makes me feel in a rush all the time so I don’t have good patience & it wasn’t always like this when my first was born I think I was a great mom up until I started struggling with my self image I gained a lot of weight stress eating. Food I don’t even enjoy. I’m currently 26 weeks pregnant with our second girl & this time going forward I want to remind myself it takes 9 months to grow baby then it takes 9 months for your body to really heal from it.

What I want to do is remind myself daily that there is no rush, and if I’m trying to rush then I’m rushing my minutes that I get with my babies instead of fully soaking in the seconds I get to teach them self love. I read this post talking about when people have kids then end up expecting that child to be theirs and have an image of how they should act instead of letting them find who they are as their own person and I am really guilty of that,

I want to work on going for family walks, park dates & movie nights where we are fully there not on our phones. I want to remind myself it’s okay to have some down time without feeling so guilty, I want to focus on healing my body inside out and going to the gym to get my confidence back so I can fully be happy for my kids and not only that but my partner deserves a health partner as well, he comes from a home that was loving & never had to worry about his next meal so he doesn’t fully understand why I am the way I am. And I can’t blame him or push him to understand if I don’t express. But this day forward I’m choosing healing. 💕