Cheating husband? Maybe?

So I’ve been with my husband for 7 years. Married 3. 2 handsome little boys we have. I love him so much. The thought of losing him makes me sick to my stomach. But lately idk if I’m just over thinking or what but I feel him cold. Let me go back a month ago.

I’m a SAHM. And I take care of the housework and as well as my kiddos. And everything that comes in between. And sometimes it’s a lot. And i go visit my parents an hour away to clear my head and just restart. So I was gone for a week. He would text me and stuff but the whole time I was gone I didn’t hear from him till the very next day. Meaning after he got off at 5 I didn’t hear from him till 4am when he’s up getting ready for work. I got to thinking really hard. Like super hard just things racing through my head that made me wonder. Now Iam a very jealous person.

I come back and things were just off. Like his body language just everything. So you know I brush it off thinking it’s work. And it just put me in a depressing mood. I couldn’t shake it off. Just wondering if he’s actually. Seeing someone behind my back.

I confronted him. And he denied everything. He said it’s just me. And he loves me and what not. Now idk about you or how you take things. Call me immature whatever. But I went to my husband profile and there’s this chick always reacting on his posts. It’s the heart reaction on just random shit he posts. Things that you would react with the haha emoji and she would react with a heart. Anyway I click on her profile and it’s public to the whole world so I take a quick look and what do you know.

Yup. He’s liking her shit. Her pictures. And I kinda look at her and she kinda looks like me!! 😮 and then he starts liking her posts that kinda made me think. I don’t have screenshots but this is what is said.

“Are you married? Yea but it’s not that serious”

“I’m fucking w/ whoever makes me happy if that’s yo baby daddy then oh well”

“You ever met the love of your life and then boom you meet another one?”

And many more.

I confronted him about it an d he said he has never met her or talked to her. And he never bothered in deleting her either.

It’s just something I can’t shake off. It’s like you know it’s a gut feeling and it’s never wrong.

Hence, he doesn’t have any pictures of me. He doesn’t have any at all. To say I’m his wife. Mother of his kids NOTHING. So it all looks like a single father of 2. He says he don’t want nobody in his business.

When we go out he won’t hold my hand.

When we go out to eat we sit way back.

He blames not being romantic because of the way he was raised. No father figure. So he doesn’t show affection. But idk. He would do sweet things now it’s nothing.

What’s your input on this? He’s cheating? Am I really just over reacting? Shidddd I might be but it’s that gut feeling. And you know it’s always right!

Edit: this is the memes that he “liked” like I said call me whatever but this isn’t sitting well with me.

Update: 7-19

So last night I got on his phone while he was sleeping. I didn’t find anything on his messages. I’m surprised his password is still the same. I didn’t find anything at all. But again. I was nervous as hell! He doesn’t sleep well on the 1st day back when changing from day shift to night shift. So he was waking constantly. So I quickly scroll through the names of the messages. And while I was looking through it he woke up!! I just made it look like I was drinking from his cup of water 😂 I till try to look again tonight as well as messenger.

Update: 7-21

I still haven’t went through his phone like I want too. Messenger and snap is one that I’m so worried about. I have wrote down his snap score down. He snaps stories about 3 a day or so. But if it’s goes up than that it definitely something going on. (Saw it on tiktok actually. To look at his snap score. Write it down, and if it’s going up. He’s snapping someone) Also he still has that girl on Facebook. Even after I told him how much it bothered me. He still has her as a friend. He acts like everything is okay. And he has nothing to hide. He comes home, hugs the kids, me, and he tells me about his day. And then making plans to out of town with just us 2. Idk. What to think.