Prepartum Depression

Have any of you suffered from prepartum depression? I’ve heard of postpartum being very common but I never hear about prepartum depression. Everything in my life is so perfect and amazing right now. I literally have the most amazing husband ever. This whole pregnancy I have felt sick or have zero energy. He does all the cleaning, cooking, and literally goes out of his way to make sure I am comfortable and have everything I could want or need. I work full time and so does he. I just feel like a horrible wife. I literally haven’t brushed my hair since Sunday. He was actually the one to do so. I shower everyday but I haven’t been shaving very often, or wearing makeup, or dressing up. On top of that I don’t ever have the energy to cook or clean. I’m also so sad that I will miss it being just my husband and I. I feel so horrible for thinking that. I am extremely excited to be having a baby and starting our family I’m just so worried I will disappoint him as a wife or mother after our daughter is born. I will be a stay at home mom and I am so grateful to be able to do so I just really hope I meet my own expectations of being a good wife and mother. My husband is so amazing and understanding I am seriously so lucky but I can’t seem to shake the sadness I have right now of not feeling worthy. My husbands number one love language is acts of service and I feel like I’ve been failing at showing him love in his language whereas he exceeds loving me in mine. He denies it and reassures me he feels loved and that he is so grateful for me and that he loves me very much. Any tips or advice other than medication.

Update: to show you how amazing my husband is. He just sent me this after I told him how I’m feeling.