23weeks and feeling overwhelmed

I can’t start buying baby stuff or anything for myself yet because I was thinking its still early. I had 2 miscarriages for the last 4years and never made it this far. So far so good as far as my baby’s health but the anxiety wont leave me alone. Baby is very active kicking this week and we have our 24weeks check up in 10days.

How can I be motivated? I feel like anytime something can be wrong like GD, cerclage, or GHypertention. But so far I eat as healthy as I can and exercise. I’m doing my best. But part of me wanted to start buying stuff.

Due on November, any thoughts of encouragement would highly be appreciated mamas.

I hope you all doing well.