Do I have a problem or am I the problem?

⚠️ Trigger warning ⚠️

I was raped & molested for years from age 9 to 12…with that I have a lot of PTSD. Well I’m also hyper sexual & a lot of the time I can manage my cravings for sex. But just about everyone I have sex with I have no emotional attachment too it’s literally sex and they can get out of my face. I feel guilty because I want to love and I want to be in a committed relationship with one person mentally I can not do it because I don’t have emotions when it comes to stuff like that. I feel so weird!

And I have no clue how to bring this up to a therapist