30 yrs old, awful fertility

Yesterday was my third retrieval, resulting in 13 eggs. Comparable to my first cycle which resulted in only one of 14 surviving to blast and it being genetically abnormal (BT on the 13-14 chromosome, genetic testing is necessary). History does not pose well for me in this situation and I’m devastated. It’s been 2 years and I have never once gotten a positive pregnancy test as I also have implantation failure issues (waiting on receptiva results, yes we did the ERA as well). Only my second cycle produced 18 eggs which got me 2 normal embryos that failed in truly spectacular fashion.

I’m not waiting for the results of this retrieval, I already know it’s not going to be good. As far as my consult goes, do I request a protocol review because it failed me the second time we used this protocol? Or do I start seriously figuring out if donor eggs are my best chance? If I do another protocol I essentially want it started with my next cycle but I don’t know if that’s even a possibility.

I’m beyond devastated, i never in a million years thought I’d be in this position where even ivf is not increasing my chances. It seems like it’s impossible for my body to create normal embryos and certainly not possible to even implant. I have ultimately removed myself from any social situation surround friends of mine or my partner that have children (which is a shockingly large number of people), and currently struggling with the idea of children not being biologically related to me.