My ex is killing my self esteem

This is a long story and I’m pissed and devastated.

So long time ago, my ex said something hurtful. I started going to the gym and I was getting curves. He said “damn babe you’re getting thick you used to be so skinny I couldn’t grab to anything” I got so upset especially because I found text messages between his cousin and him sending pics of girls they find their type. They were girls with big butts.

I tried to get over my insecurities. But it was still there. So I logged into his Instagram and all his suggested were half naked girls. He didn’t follow them but it was suggested. I didn’t log in without his permission. He asked me to answer his friends message. It brought back insecurities. So I took a cute photo shoot of myself to uplift myself with my new workout gear. He got pissed I uploaded the pics on social media and he blocked me. I told him straight up why is he so paranoid is it because he lurks on random pages? He got more mad. I know so messed up on both ends.

I told him I don’t want a relationship that controls what I can post or what I can’t. I told him “you’re scared that guys will see. If I want to post nude I’ll do it. “

Well he told his grandmother like a cry baby and his grandmother called me “sick” like I’m mentally ill with my disgusting thoughts.

My ex contacted me and told me this

He is literally Pointing out my nipple hairs which I do trim. My pubic hairs. Prior to this he told me his family told him he can do better of a woman because I’m so vulgar. I told him that I wish him the best with his new gf …

All the confidence I had is gone! Like bad. Just started throwing up again in the toilet