Feeling sad

I was really excited to get back into school in person. I took a gap year then we went online.

I have no real friends. The two from HS I’ve put grown and either mean to me or just I don’t like who they’ve become.

I was so happy to start into my program. But I haven’t made friends yet. It’s different ppl each class so I can really make connections cuz I’d have to wait a whole other week and by then I forget who they were. Everyone looks the same w our face masks, scrubs, hair caps etc.

And sometimes, w social distancing nobody talks to me and they group together and talk lots cuz that’s who they’re sitting closer too.

I’m just really sad. I’ve been wanting new friends for literal years. I’m usually shy and quiet but I’m more talkative now and even when I start convos it only lasts so long. Maybe it’ll just take more time. I just feel left out when I see groups of ppl from my class walking around outside together after class or sitting in groups at lunch.

I’m tired of trying. I kinda just want to revert and be by myself and independent. My only real friend is my mom and bf. My bf is long distance tho