A long time ago I had this best friend. She meant everything to me. I loved her despite her choking, punching, and verbally abusing me on a daily basis.

I found and started dating my soulmate and she was furious over this. She accused me of choosing my boyfriend over her. She cut all ties with me, made all my friends cut me off. It completely destroyed me.

A few years have gone by and I’ve come to accept that our friendship was abusive.

I found out that she finally met her long distance boyfriend and I can’t stop sobbing. She has waited for this day for so long and always told me she wanted me to be there when it happened. I wasn’t there, I’ll never be there, I will never have my best friend again.

How do I stop hurting over someone who hurt me so much?