2 miscarriages and now probably a chemical in the past 10 months 😕

I’m just so upset and I feel I have no one who understands. I got 2 faint but visible positives on FRER yesterday and this morning a bfn so I’m guessing a chemical. I also had a miscarriage at 6 weeks in November and one at 11 weeks in June. We are ttc our third - it took us 4 years to conceive our second (no prior miscarriages before the two I have had this time and no chemicals that I know of) and now this. I just feel sad. I hope I’ll get my third soon. I love my two kids that I have and I am so grateful for them and that makes me hurt even more that I feel sad that I can’t get my third, like wtheck kind of feeling that I should just be happy I have my two. My feelings are everywhere and I just want my double rainbow baby so bad. 😞 thanks for listening and baby dust to everyone ttc