In my head!

TW: mention of loss and current pregnancy

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So I’m over the moon excited and terrified at the same time. Been ttc for over a year after a mmc last August. Just got my bfp last week and am so excited. I’ll be 42 in November, conceived naturally (I was literally about to make an appt with a specialist if af came this month) and idk how to not worry! I’m trying to choose to be happy, take care of myself, and stay positive that this baby sticks around b/c there’s nothing else I can do. The hubs and a couple of close friends are only ppl who know. I’m trying to choose to stay positive and it’s hard not to get in my head. I’m all in my head about having another loss, being an older mom, all the health risks, and my stressful job not taking a toll on me. My 1st dr appt isn’t for a few more weeks and I feel like until then it won’t feel totally real to me and I want the relief of seeing the ultrasound and knowing everything is ok! Rn my symptoms which are mild (sore boobs, slight nausea, fatigue) come and go which makes me paranoid when I feel fine! Mamas how did you handle it, stay positive, and keep calm in early pregnancy? Trying to do the meditation/exercise thing but any other encouragement or advice is appreciated rn!