Does anyone else feel like their parents had a kid(s) because that is what society taught them to do but deep down they probably shouldn’t have had any

My mom was 35 when she had me and my dad was 46 neither of them had any existing kids or marriages previously. My parents never played with me and I spent the weekends mostly alone at home playing with dolls or watching tv. During the week I would get dropped off early at 6am and was the last one to get picked up from after school kids program at 5pm and when I got home I would hang out by myself watching tv then repeat. My parents got mad when I didn’t automatically know something and they never taught me just yelled. My mom didn’t teach me how to interact, be confident, believe in myself, and I spent most of my childhood crying. Neither of my parents had patience and my mom was always beating down on me. How I looked, weight, what I was doing wrong, how I wasn’t smart enough, what I ate, etc. She would prepare dinner but a lot of the time when I was home alone there wouldn’t be a meal prepared so I’d just eat from the pantry and she’d get mad how I couldn’t cook for myself at the tender age of 5-12. After my parents split my mom used to get mad at me because I was behind everyone else my age. She thought my teachers were suppose to raise me and I clearly must’ve not been paying attention. Any time I wanted something it was a huge issue. My childhood wasn’t positive and was mostly negative. Once my dad was out of the picture he didn’t raise me at all.

As I’ve gotten older I’ve realized that I think my mom wanted a kid because society and probably her catholic school upbringing taught her she needed one. I think she also forced the idea on my dad. Most people who have kids know that it’s a life long contract and you literally have to shape and form this human. You know kids are expensive and they will ask for shit and you actually have to love them. Most people should know this before having a kid get it seemed lost on my mom. Anyone else feel this way about their parents? They would’ve been better off without kids