Pregnancy loss

I have had three pregnancies now in 7 years of "trying.". One has resulted in my perfect baby boy, who will be two in November.... one was several years prior to my son, and one will physically manifest in the next few days. I am sad. We have talked about number two for a while now, but it was a surprise. However, even with several positive tests and then blood work to confirm, it never felt "right." Call it intuition or whatever you want, but from the beginning I knew. It was how I felt with the first miscarriage as well. Incredibly excited, but my gut told me something was not right. With my son it was different. Yes I was a nervous wreck, but it was always about him being healthy and me doing all the right things, not if it will "stick".... It does not make the loss any easier, but as I held my son tonight before putting him to bed, I am reminded of how hard this whole fertility/parenting/family thing is and how fragile life is... yet I am also reminded of how lucky I am to have my rainbow boy. We will try again in a few months, and there may be more heartache or there may be more incredible joy... but tonight I have my whole world right here and for that I am so incredibly thankful. To all the mommas out there struggling tonight, I feel you and you are not alone.