I’m 23, and my boyfriend and I are thinking about possibly having kids. So I saw a doctor-…well, apparently I have a tilted cervix and I have PCOS ( we knew this previously..hence why the visit to the doctor.)

According to the doctor it’s gonna be super super hard for me to get pregnant, ( we haven’t been trying but we also haven’t been preventing for over a year…still no baby?) unless I start to drop major weight ( 50-75lbs) I’ve tried diets, I’ve tried getting a gym membership. The diets went south because of previous eating disorders. I have horrible food management skills..and by that I mean I’ll starve myself to feel skinny during the day and then binge eat at night.

Well I’ve finally hit over 200lbs and I feel like a slob. My sex drive isn’t horrible, but it’s hard to get off because I’m so self conscious. I’ve stopped wearing all the cute outfits I had. I hate my stretch marks, and I quite honestly don’t think I’m gonna be able to carry the baby I want unless I drop this weight.

Has anyone done PCOS friendly weight loss? Is there maybe a program that I could start saving for? We want kids starting in the next couple years ( 2-3 possibly.) my back hurts all the time, my chest is heavy as hell, I hate my body…I just want to feel pretty again?

Just a side note - I’ve always been chubby but never this big. And I’m finally over it and I hate myself.

At my skinniest in a WHILE, I was like 180 and like 16 years old.

To now…

I’m 203 and ALL of my weight is in my Midsection, it’s NOT FAIR.

I’m not even sure what to do anymore…I was considering a gluten free diet? Or maybe dairy free? Has anyone ever cured or helped their PCOS with dietary changes? I know it’s hormonal weight gain because I fluctuate horribly through the month so sometimes I have the really cute little face and sometimes it’s bloated and im 20 pounds heavier in just my chin and cheeks.

Here’s an example of the bloating I’m talking about…my ideal body isn’t super super super skinny either it’s more curvy and just an even weight all around…this being shaped like a spoon shit isn’t okay 😂😂😂😂