Toxic relationship

I’ve been with the /father of my kids 7 years. We’ve been living together for the past 3. We have two toddler boys. He’s been emotionally, verbally, and a few times physically abusive through the whole relationship. He worked on himself and got a lot better for about 2yrs I was happy everything was great until now. The same cycle of verbal and emotional abuse gaslighting has started. This time i finally realized how bad he’s been and I don’t deserve it I feel nothing but disgust and anger towards him when before I still felt love despite how he’d treat me and I would be willing to work things out.

This time I’m done but financially I cannot move out right now. The house is his from before we dated and his 3 daughters he has full custody of from a previous relationship so my boys and I will be the ones to move out. I have a decent paying job so I’d be ok I’d just need a few months to save up to get financially comfortable.

Currently we don’t speak at all we live our lives under the same roof but separate. He has no idea of me planning to leave but all this is unbearable for me. He’s also a great father and the kids love him so that’s something else that hurts because I know they’re going to be hurt when we don’t live here anymore.

I just needed to vent a little or see if anyone has been in this same situation how did they do? I have nobody I can talk to and Ive been going through all this by myself and trying to get my mind out of how he’s beat it down after all these years of making me feel like 💩.