Would it bother you if your husband masturbated to porn?

Idk why this bothers me but it does. Masturbating when we already don’t have sex and he knows I want to is bad enough but knowing my husband is watching porn makes it worse somehow. I know this is all stemming from insecurities as I just had a baby and I am a lot heavier now but I wish he would choose me over his hand 😅 and the fact that he’s watching these perfect looking women in porn and fantasizing about them just blows and makes me feel unattractive af, like if you’re that horny then talk to me I’m in bed right next to you lol. We haven’t had sex in so long and I just want to know what others think, what do y’all do in your relationships? Does it matter at all to you? Why or why not