Overdue

I'm 40+4 and today I was supposed to get a membrane sweep but they said they were not able to do that because she couldn't reach my cervix. Thursday they want to try it again and I have induction planned for Sunday. I hope I will go into labor by my self. I am having a emotional rollercoaster. Anyone else that is like me? I had an emotional meltdown yesterday, became very angry because something wasn't clean. I totally flipped at my husband. And it's so sad because he is doing so much his best. He is so nice. I feel so guilty. But it's like I can't control it. I really want to give birth and get normal again.