I’ve dealt with an eating disorder, and depression as long as I can remember. I’ve seen countless doctors and tried countless medications and countless therapists over the last 15 years of this struggle and nothing has helped. It comes in waves and usually I just get over it on my own then a few months later it will come back and my husband helps me through it.

I’ve been doing fine for the last 6 months or so, but I found out I was pregnant 2 months ago and I’m just not doing okay. I’m fine with being pregnant but the additional hormones aren’t doing me well. My motivation is completely gone, I’m counting calories again because I’m noticing small changes in my Body that I don’t like. I’m back to enjoying nothing, over the my lifetime with these illnesses I’ve always found one or two things that I could still do. But now I just can’t. It’s a struggle to wake up. A struggle to eat, a struggle to bathe, or even take care of my home. I’m so thankful I work from home because I would have been fired by now.

Anyway just need a listening ear or some advice from someone who has been through a similar situation. Please do not recommend more medication I doubt you could name one I have not tried, and please don’t recommend therapy, my sister is a psychologist and even at this point she said all someone will do is talk to me and I refuse to pay for someone to sit there and listen. after 15 years there’s not much therapy will do to help. Also I know positivity pushing is huge on this app, but positive thinking doesn’t heal actual mental illnesses, it’s just tricking your brain, I’ve tried it all. Just looking for real person advice, not a motivational quote.