Is my lifestyle going to kill me?

Please no judgment I know I have a problem.

I am really worried that I am going to die early, and I know I need to make better lifestyle changes but I just can’t.

I am about 100 pounds overweight and I’m in my early 30s. I eat fast food twice a day. Sometimes even three times a day. We will order Wendy’s for lunch and have McDonald’s for dinner. I will get a burger large fries and a large shake. I am eating way more than I should and crap to begin with. I blame my husband because he’s always eaten like this. I don’t know how to cook. He doesn’t want me to cook either because he’s so picky he’d rather just order what he likes. Then if I say I don’t want any fast food he will tempt me.

I haven’t been to the doctor in years . My blood pressure and cholesterol have to be so high. I have no idea. I want to have a baby too. I’ll be 32 in a few months. Will I be able to have a healthy pregnancy?

I’m worried if I keep going this way, I will end up dying early. I know it’s so bad but I can’t stop. How can I stop when it’s my husbands fault? Can someone really live a long life eating this bad? Everytime I weigh myself the numbers go up and up and up. Is the damage I’ve done reversible?

Please don’t judge me I know this is bad.