Controversial Vaccine Rant

So this will be controversial. This might rub people the wrong way. But this is where I am at right now and I’m feeling anxious, angry and stuck. I’m not trying to convince people either way, I just want a vent because I feel trapped.

I’m from Australia and going on 27 weeks pregnant. Right now at it stands I’m healthy and fine apart from a few pregnancy aches and pains.

I’ve looked at my governments handouts for getting the vaccine while pregnant and breastfeeding, I’ve spoken to my specialist and after doing both I’ve decided against the vaccine. When I asked my specialist about longevity outcomes he went around in circles and didn’t answer my question. But the studies that these decision guides (given out by the government) sourced and that I read concluded that it was early stage testing and more “longitudinal follow ups was necessary to inform maternal, pregnancy, and infant outcomes.”

I decided that right now I am healthy. I either had the choice of potentially catching COVID naturally or knowingly inject something I’m not comfortable with into my body having the added potential of unknown long term outcomes.

In my country they’ve made it mandatory for people to get the vaccine. People are loosing their jobs if they refuse, are being excluded from pubs, clubs, retail, entertainment ect.

I was frustrated but begrudgingly decided that I would just be patient. But now they’ve pushed these exclusions further by excluding me from taking my son to swimming lessons. As it stands I am only allowed to go to public parks and do essential shopping. Basically lockdown.

I am pissed off that just a few months ago in the full swing of COVID I had more freedoms than I do now. I am pissed off that my country is now divided by segregation and an “us” and “them” mentality.

Im pissed off that due to my educated decision my son now misses out on an essential education.

I feel like this is coercion. They keep telling me that it is just the consequences of my decision and I feel like that is warranted if it was natural consequences such as me accepting the potential risks of contracting COVID but these aren’t. These are government enforcements which are stripping me of my rights as a citizen to access services that my taxes pay for.

They are making me feel like a villain that I don’t care about my fellow Australian and are putting them at risk. Do you think I need to hear that while I am also trying to juggle the potential risk to myself and the potential risk to my baby. I have taken all of these risks into my decision making process. I feel like at 80% double vaccinated and rising I shouldn’t have my rights further stripped and taken away if anything the opposite should happen. If these vaccines work why am I a risk to those who are vaccinated. Why is my fear of knowingly putting something I am unsure and anxious about such a condemnable offence.

There is many more factors adding to my rage (such as higher ranked jobs like judges and politicians not being required to be vaccinated or my states premier who is enforcing such strict mandates not publicly disclosing whether or not he is vaccinated) but really at the end of the day I am feeling suffocated, attacked and alone. This is my last pregnancy and what was supposed to be a joyous sunset is now tainted.

I’m just trying to do my best for everyone. I have a lot to consider and I hate being made out like I’m doing it out of malicious intent. I’m not. I’m just trying to do what I feel is best.

Signing off as one exhausted Mumma 🍃