Still terrified something will happen, anyone else?

I can’t seem to relax. My first pregnancy ended in the loss of my daughter at 41 wks during delivery. Throughout the pregnancy I had swelling and high bp but was not diagnosed with preeclampsia until after the loss when it got worse. There was also medical negligence involved.

I am currently 28 weeks and everything’s been perfect so far. No high bp although it seems to be trending up, no swelling, minimal nausea and literally no other symptoms. I even passed my 1 hour glucose which I failed last time. It seems too perfect. I keep waiting for the bad news.

I’m sure some of you feel the same way so I’m not looking for advice really, just want to get my anxiety out there. People in my life don’t necessarily understand. Today marks the day I went to the hospital last year after laboring at home for a day as well as my husband birthday. The 30th we lost her. We told my in-laws we will come over tonight for a birthday dinner as long as the 28 wk ultrasound today goes well. They didn’t understand why we said that because we don’t have a reason to think anything is wrong. It’s frustrating when people don’t quite understand.