Vent… life is to short… grandmother was so upset I’m gay

Here’s my story…

My grandmother and my mother raised me I lived with my grandmother because the schools were better in that area.

My grandmother and mother found out I was homosexual in 2008 I was 18 working and enrolled in college. My mother was ok with it, However my grandmother didn’t speak to me for two weeks the house felt so Cold even with the heat on but that was to be expected.

2011 I meet my current wife my grandmother grew to love her it was a long road though

Fast forward 2014 after being with my current wife my grandmother told me she been battling with her religion but she loves me and she accepted my relationship.

I was so happy she finally said it.

My grandmother never mistreated my wife she just didn’t want us to go against the bible. My grandmother wasn’t just upset with our relationship, she was a true believer. She was even upset at my cousin for having 3 different fathers for her 3 kids and isn’t married to any of them.

With my grandmother saying she finally accepted us I decided to plan a date for the wedding I decided to wait a year before getting a dress and asking grandmother to go dress shopping. I thought finally My grandmother was going to be apart of my relationship.

So in 2015 I told my grandmother I was engaged and getting married oh she flipped

All my childhood things that was left at her house she got rid of them

My mom showed up for dress shopping but my grandmother was absent I was so hurt.

My grandmother again didn’t wanna talk to me. I didn’t wanna make her talk to me because I didn’t wanna cause her to have a heart attack from stress.

So I stayed away I would call her just to hear her say “hello” I knew if I would’ve said anything she would’ve hung up on me and I would’ve felt worse than I already did.

I would call her and hope for the voicemail so I could talk to her.

I got married…. I love my wife so much but it’s difficult for me to give her the love she deserves because in the back of my head all I can do is remember my grandmother seeming so disappointed in me.

I never talked to her again

In 2016 my grandmother passed away

Now it’s 2021 I’m still married to my wife but I see myself pulling away everyday because my grandmother was so upset.

My grandmother was ok with us being best friends or girlfriends just not a married couple

I hate that I disappointed her for loving the wrong person

Now I wish I wouldn’t have invited her but I was so happy I wanted her there