How to cope with a breakup in the middle of ttc?

Juliette

Has anyone broke up with their s.o. when you were ttc? I'm 39 years old. I really wanted another baby before it was too late. I wanted it to be with this man. He's the love of my life. It has been a struggle to get together with him though. His family doesn't approve of me. They are Muslim and I'm not. I had to fight really hard to get to where I was with him. I thought we actually made it and could maybe have time to have a baby, but now my dreams of having another baby might not happen. I broke up with him. There has been a major issue that hasn't been rectified. He won't tell his family about me. I'm not going to be hidden away like its a bad thing for us to love each other. I know it's difficult thing to go against your family, but its been 1.5 years now. I'm starting to wonder if he's capable. What did he plan on doing if we have a baby anyway, not yell his family?🙄 I keep tellimg him he has to tell them and he won't. I want to be acknowledged. It makes me feel like our relationship isn't legitimate. I got in a huge fight with him, this one was the worst, because we always fight about it, but nothing changes. I'm hoping this will be a wakeup call, but even if he fixes things I'm scared it will be too late to have a baby. It's possible he won't fix things too. I was told I have a low ovarian reserve. My doctor said I should try naturally for 6 months, then she wanted me to try hormone inhections to stimulate my egg production. That was 5 months ago. I took my IUD out 4 months ago. My periods have been fine, but each month things keep getting shorter and shorter. Like last month I ovulated on cd13, then this month my period came 5 days early. I know I'm stressed out, from all of this, but it's possible I just didn't ovulate last month at all. I'm scared I missed my opportunity and it will never happen. I also have a slow growing lymphoma, so I needed to get pregnant now, before I eventually will need to have chemo and I really won't be able to conceive. I was given the go ahead by my doctor's, but none of that matters if I don't have anyone to get me pregnant. I'm totally devastated and I don't know what to do about it. I wonder if I'm making the right decision. I'm so scared that I missed my chance. How am I supposed to get over this? I just always thought God had my back and eventually I would have my baby with this man. I've been in love with him for 17 years. I thought we finally made it, but I also won't sit by while he hides me from his family. He's not a fuckboy or anything. He's not like that. He really is a good guy. He's just scared they will disown him, but at a certain point you need to stick up for what you want. He's 46 years old. His family should not be dictating his life. We live in the US too. He was raised here. It's partly about culture, but I find that cop out. We will be fine, even if they do disown him. He does work for the family business, but still, I think its just an excuse. We would figure it out. I know his family too and i don't think they would disown him. 2 of his brothers married white women and yeah, the family didnt like it, but they got over it. I just feel like if i don't put my foot down then he won't change, but now I'm totally lost. I don't know what to do. It's not like I'm OK going and finding someone else. I don't have time for that. Plus, this man knows everything I'm going through and I know he loves me too. I assume all of this would be too much for a new person. I don't want a baby with another man anyway. I want my man to figure his shit out, so we can have a baby. I just don't know what to do. Has anyone gone through anything similar? How did it work out? Did you get your baby? I just need some words of encouragement, because I'm so heartbroken. 😥💔