People pleaser

Im very meek, naive, and quiet. I also really don’t like drama, fights, confrontation, or people being mad at me. Often times, I put myself down. Even when I know im in the right deep down, I still let it be my fault. I have valid points to defend myself but never say them. I am constantly saying sorry and that im stupid when I know I have no reason to say these things about myself. I do this bc I don’t wanna lose people in my life. Im afraid they will think im rude or nasty for defending myself. A LOT of the times i am gaslighted into thinking it’s my fault. and then when i reflect on it in my head i realized i wasn’t. this happens everywhere for me. work. school. friends. etc. Once people get to know me, they know that if they act mad at me ill fold and they can walk over me. it hurts when people close to me do this especially because they know that’s how i am. How can I stop being so weak and stick up for myself and stop people walking all over me??