I’m so jealous of the moms that have the gut to leave!

I never ever ever liked motherhood and family life. I regret so much not listening to my gut and not having a marriage/children. Instead I went with what I thought it would be the right thing. That this would be my purpose because I grew up thinking that the meaning of life was to have a family. But I hate everything about this life. I hate taking care of people when I can barely take care of myself. But I don’t have it in my to just abandon everything. I love my husband and kids too much to just leave them. So yeah, I’m jealous of moms that own up to their shit and go find another way to be happy. I guess I’ll just have to accept that I’m trapped for as long as I live.

(I’m on therapy and medication for years, clearly is not enough to help me through these feelings)

I soooo wish I felt different. Trust me.