No fair 🙁

I just lost my virginity this year I’ve only had sex with 4 people through out this year and nobody literally nobody has EVER made me finish! I probably need to pick them better but no man has ever made me cum. I know I’m not immune to orgasms because I give myself orgasms allll the time but it makes everything feel like a waste because I never got to finish only they did and it’s not even fair. I should probably take a break for a while because now I have a lower libido and less desires to have sex. Btw has anyone ever made you finish if so how many partners have made you finish? I find this ridiculous and maybe sex just isn’t really for me it actually makes me feel bad and like my time is wasted. I never had a consistent sexual partner so that’s also probably why I hate sex now.