At my breaking point withmy 2 year old.

Looking for some tips, advice, etc. I’m loosing it. He’s always been a very very strong willed independent kid I mean even at a baby stage he wanted to do anything and everything on his own. He does not like help or he flips out. As he’s getting older he’s getting worse which I know terrible 2s, yes but this has been an ongoing thing for me since he was born. The thing is he isn’t like this with his dad! Even as a little baby he was a perfect angel for daddy and for me it’s never been like that! 😭 I don’t know what I’m doing any different then dad does we do the same stuff!! He has never slept, ever. Since he was newborn he wakes up all night, even know he wakes up anywhere from 3-6 times a night. Nothing is wrong with him either.. he just wants a bottle which I’m trying so hard to not give because I need to break him from that. He screams his head off and sometimes wakes my older two who are in school and need sleep. He used to take maybe 30 mins to an hour naps now he won’t nap at all, im exhausted I can’t nap if he doesn’t. He will lay in his bed and just talk and play then after about 30 mins he wants out and cries and screams till someone gets him out. I try to let him cry it out and hoping he gets tired and can fall asleep but nope. He will go on for so long and not give it up. Going to bed at night is a nightmare csuse he doesn’t wanna sleep it takes him an hour before he even falls asleep then he’ll wake up 3-6 times depending on the night. I’m starting to get a pounding migraine everyday. Nauseous because of no sleep and Making food for myself is like a chore to me so I don’t eat as much csuse I’m just so tired. I’m lacking so much sleep and rest I can’t even function. He was in our hospital daycare I work at, but he had constant illness from the germs and viruses I had to take him out just to give his body time to really heal. The thing is I haven’t been working csuse of how hard it’s been, I’m a tech so if anyone knows it’s beyond physically hard and some night I have 10-15 patients on the unit by myself. Healthcare is going downhill and half of my floor is now gone cause of the Covid vaccine mandate so working is literally impossible at the moment. My husband is a nurse and he’s doing travel at the moment so he’s gone most nights and when he’s home he’s sleeping so he helps as much as he can but basically it’s just me. He’s a walking tornado if your not watching him every second he will destroy EVERYTHING. Then I have to bust ass to clean constantly I just can’t keep up and I have no idea what to do but my body is so worn out and no sleep for so long I’m starting to physically get sick. I have two older kids, 8 and 6 and I csnt even help with homework till the baby stops because he’ll be ready to tear their home work up and when I try to get him away he screams. I’m so sad and guilty because I neglect my older two kids needs because the baby is literally a 24.7 all day thing. It’s not normal I don’t feel like. I understand toddlers are hard but this feel so different. Neither of my other kids were like this as toddlers.

Pleas help a mom I’m desperate on how I can help solve this sleeping issue and his behavior in general. I know hes 2 and he’s learning and growing but 😭😭😭😭