Postpartum anxiety

So my little boy is 8 months old now and he is such an angel baby. Sleeps through the night, always happy. Such an easy baby.

But I’ve struggled with ppa since having him. It’s so much better now the only thing I struggle with is trying new foods. And leaving him with other people (besides his grandparents).

Originally I wanted three kids but I just don’t know if I can do the ppa three times. But then I feel like when they are older I’ll regret it if I just have two.

Someone please tell me it gets easier when you have more children and you relax more ? 😓