I just need some advice

I am 20 years old and a full time college student. I don’t have an older sister nor do I have many friends to talk to about boys. And as much as I love my mom and know she wants to be there for me, there’s things I want to keep to myself, especially because Ik she won’t agree.

So My biggest fear around sex is that I am making it easy for guys to fuck me. It’s like they get turned on, I get turned on, and it usually turns into sex. I’ve only had sex with 2 guys and almost had sex with 2 others (one of them being the current guy I’m talking to). My mom told me I should be in a committed relationship with the guys I talk to before having sex and stop having causal relationships with them. She also wants to know when I am having sex by telling her me and whoever is getting serious. Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s a good plan, but only thing is I don’t want to be in a committed relationship. And because my mom says I’m making it easy for these guys and just “giving myself away” since I’m not committed to them, it just got me thinking that I really am making it easy and now I have this fear when thinking of having sex with anyone and it makes me feel guilty. When I reflect on the guys I did have sex with, regret what wasn’t there before starts to come up and honestly I start to feel depressed because after my mom told me that I felt like that’s what I was doing.

I just need some advice. I want to have fun and explore different relationships but anything other than being in a committed relationship sounds wrong and I really hate that. Personally I love my freedom and exploring new, different, and unusual (in a good kinda of way) things.

Please no judgment or rude commitments. Some of these things are much deeper which I will be talking to someone about, but for now I’m just looking for some general advice.