Advice?

I truly don’t know how I’m going to get through this newborn phase. I hate breastfeeding, I feel like I can never have a break because of it. Even though I tried to compromise with my husband about it, he didn’t keep his end of it last night. I was up at 3 am yesterday, all the way until 1 am this morning breastfeeding and changing the baby off and on. He asked me last night to get a bottle of milk ready for him so he could feed him, that way I could get some sleep. I did, but it didn’t pan out that way at all. Instead, he went to sleep while I kept having to get up. Thankfully my mom was able to be there later to take him for me so I could finally get sleep. I still feel very tired though, and I’m upset that the only time that bottle got touched was when my mom had him. I don’t think my husband understands just how exhausting it is for me, and it’s making me lose my damn mind… I love my son, but I’m hating being a mom right now… I don’t know what else to do to survive this shit…