Chemical😔

I got a positive digital on December 20th and woke up Christmas morning to bleeding! It was terrible! I’m feeling so defeated! I’ve had three chemicals since July! I haven’t talked to my doctor cause I’m not going to draw blood and have to pay for another miscarriage! Getting them bills in the mail is just a terrible reminder! I’m afraid to even try again idk how much I can keep putting myself through this. Anyone else go through this have any advice!? 😔