Miscarriage

So I know I’m slow my gonna get really judged for all this but just wanted some advice or something. So im 16,at the start of the year I was r1ped sadly, then a month later I found out I was pregnant, long story short I lost the baby and I know I’m only 16 and of course the situation was terrible and I struggle so much because of it but I still feel so so upset and a part of me wishes I was pregnant, is this bad ?I know I’m young and I’ll get hate for saying this but I think about having a baby every day, what is wrong with me, I know this is just an app but if someone could help anything would be appreciated x