Ivf depression

Has anyone just been so depressed because of ivf that you want to throw it all away? Move on with life? Discard the embryos and be done?

My “perfect” tested embryo failed to implant last November. Was going to do an ERA but covid got me and now I can’t, and who knows when my clinic will get me in.

I’m highly considering throwing this all away. My whole journey has been a nightmare and not a single thing has gone even close to how I was told it would. I’m starting to believe that it’s not meant to be.

I’m depressed, I’m devastated, and I don’t think I will ever feel better. I don’t think a baby is going to make me feel any better either.