Um is this really happening ?

Yeah I am still in shock that my son is on his way to this world in a couple of weeks … only thing that makes me feel pregnant is when he is kicking !! Does it change when he finally arrives ? I’m just so damn nervous ! It doesn’t feel real what if I don’t have that mother’s intuition I pray it’s there this month has been so hard !! My boyfriend is on deployment and will not meet his son till he is 6 months … so there’s so many emotions … you see moms and they just seem to have it all together and are excited getting their nursery’s ready and diaper bag and I just can’t get myself to be super excited this month has been hard !