Random Anxiety 🥴

I have no idea why, but for the past two days I’ve been staying up later than usual just not able to go to sleep. Last night was a bit different, I have no idea why, but I had so much anxiety that someone was going to break into my house and hurt my family or that someone was already in my house waiting for me to fall asleep. I kept thinking a person could be outside my window looking in and would tell another person in my house when I fell asleep, so of course the only thing I could think of was pretend to fall asleep just in case anything happened. Of course I actually fell asleep, I’m a new mom with an almost 4 month old who’s been a bit fussy lately so I’m tired 😂. Now it’s about 4:30am and I woke up from a bad dream (which was weird cause I’ve been having fine dreams before) and my instant thought was that someone is going to shoot up my work, I’m a nursery teacher for my church but I hardly get kids so it’s just me and my son in the school part of the church, it’s a school and church in one so I’m in a building with classrooms, and the church building and my classroom building are a good ways away from each other and it’s just my son and me in the building. I’m just sitting here thinking what the heck would I do in that situation and how I could not only protect myself, but of course my baby. I was thinking of course I’d call 911 tell them everything (cause in my scenario I heard the gun shots), lock up the classroom and turn off the lights with my son and I in a corner. I’d want them to contact my husband so he knows what’s going on, cause he comes to church later on when I’m done with my shift. But then I was like I don’t think I’d be able to come out even when police are there telling me they’re police 🤣, I feel like I would need to see and hear my husband confirm anything before I came out. Another scenario I was thinking was: I hear the gun shots and of course the buildings being separate I would grab my son, run to my car, and drive out of there with 911 on the line. I have no idea why I’ve been staying up late and now I have these thoughts and anxiety. It’s only been two days, so I’m hoping it’s just cause my husband and I watch S.W.A.T before bed 😂 and my brains just making stuff up. I just needed to rant that out to get my mind off of it.