Supposed to go in for for 3round of chemo and I don’t think I can do it anymore.

I’m inpatient for 5 days which of course makes it’s harder. The symptoms are unbearable because the anti nausea meds don’t work on me. I’ve tried a lot! Of course everyone says each round gets worse which I honestly can’t even imagine it being worse than last time. I’m in so much pain all the time and I don’t feel hopeful about any of this. My career, relationships, friendships, health have all fallen apart. I was suicidal and depressed before cancer and now I’m really don’t want to fight this. If I didn’t have my family pushing me I wouldn’t have even tried it. I’m so incredibly depressed that I don’t think my body can even heal.