My kids dad

He hasn’t seen our babies in two years since my daughter was born, He hasn’t even met her.. why? Because he got charged for beating me up and holding a knife to me and my son who was 1 at the time and I was pregnant and held us hostage in his house.. now other females are coming out about him, his ex said he beat her up and she ended up in the hospital when she was 29 weeks pregnant with another mama kid and she was only 17 at the time.. another pregnant female said he wanted to be with her but he creeped her out by driving by her house everyday.. and his old friend said he was messaging his girlfriends underage daughters.. and his ex showed screenshots of him messaging her 16 year old cousin.. like I’m disgusted.. yet the charges were dropped on him and so has the restraining order and his been told to attend his mental health therapy so he doesn’t have to work to pay child support if it’s too stressful.. I feel so trapped and alone that now I have to raise my two babies alone and can’t trust anyone.. I feel scared to leave the house.. idk :( I’m broken..