Pregnancy, masterbating and sex

I don’t really know what my point to all this is, but I don’t have anyone I could talk to about it!

Bit of backstory: I’m currently pregnant and been feeling really sick and tired during my first trimester. Although I have also been really quite horny at the same time!

So today I caught my hubby masterbating (he doesn’t know I did) I obviously do it myself too so it’s not exactly a problem. I thought I’d find it really hot but I actually feel a bit upset and weird about it! (pregnancy hormones?!) when I was pregnant with my first I was totally not interested, knew he sorted himself out and was glad he wasn’t hassling me 😂 so I’m not sure why I feel so strange about it all today!

We did have a bit of a chat around intimacy last night, so it gave me a Segway into talking about stuff this morning after I knew he did it. He works really hard and is shattered, but I just feel (irrationally) that he’d rather watch porn than do stuff with me. We have no chatted and I have said look, if you want it in the night ever just wake me up! Even if it’s just to give a helping hand 😉 he was saying he just wanted to respect me as he knew I had been feeling rough. I did point out id said I was really horny this time, but he wasn’t sure if that meant just in that moment or most of the time.

I know sex and intimacy can be hard in pregnancy, and we’ve had a good chat about it all now and he’s more than happy to get involved if he needs it 😂 so I don’t know why I still feel off kilter inside?? I never had this with my first pregnancy and I thought I wasn’t very hormonal right now so it’s all taken my by surprise! Sorry for the rumble, just felt I needed to get it out somewhere safe!