2nd baby guilt...

I’m 26 weeks pregnant and my oldest is 10 months ...

I am feeling so guilty about having another baby so soon (I was breastfeeding AND on birth control but Gd had other plans..) we are over the moon about having another baby, but I keep feeling horrible for my eldest. I feel like she will be sad and feel unloved.

I want to cry every time I think about it. I was giving her a bottle and the baby kicked and I wanted to throw up I felt so guilty..