I’m not ok

Mentally I’m just not okay, my head space is everywhere. I have a toxic mother that I live with, toxic ex and I’m currently 8 months pregnant with our child, I have 2 toddlers that do not listen or respect me, I’m trying to make ends meet, I have no resources. I just feel stuck and there’s no way out. I’m really just existing, I’m not living. I want to end everything but I know my children need me.