Miscarriage vs hope

In December I found out I was pregnant. I was happy and exited. December 14h, I didn't know my life was about to change. Me and mom daughter got rear ended. At the time I was 5 week and 1 day. I thought to myself it's ok, the baby really small I will be ok. Fast forward to our 7 week ultrasound. There was no baby. The baby stopped growing at 5 weeks and 1 day. I have to have a D&C January 6th, two days before my birthday. Sense then me and husband haven't actively trying but have had sex on ovulation days. No pregnancy. I heart broken. I want this so bad. Yet I feel scared this is my life. I understand just because you had one miscarriage doesn't mean it will happen again. I am really struggling every month that I see negative test or period.