Is there something wrong with me?? Anyone that knows psychology ?

My life just feels so bleh. It absolutely sucks i feel this way. Short Summary I did have a difficult childhood, i got pregnant at 19, cheated on by his dad, and now im a coparenting mom at 22. I dont have my degree, cant find a decent paying/ reasonable job. I feel so lost. I have an amazingg boyfriend. I love him. I just dont know what to do in life. I feel anxious and stressed all the time. Ive been picking at my skin, i now have mini scabs on my arms, face, legs, back. I feel depressed and feel like theres no point in doing anything. I hate the way society works. I could go on and on

The shitty part is, just 2 weeks ago i felt peaceful, happy, and content. I felt like i was thriving, smiling and content and felt good anout everything for a few weeks. But i keep coming back to these lasting moments of “i dont care about anything” but i also care a lot about everything.

Does it sound like i have depression? Ive only been diagnosed with anxiety. Ive felt this way my entire life. I have long periods of numbness and then i have glimpses of pure happiness and joy where my life seems to be going nearly perfect.

For example, right now and for the last 2 days, i dont know what triggered it but i feel like a robot and i feel numb. Like im just going thru the motions and im not really living. I feel weird like im on autopilot. I think im going thru depersonalization or something. Ive had it before but not for long, it always goes away. I feel weird.

Does anyone have any tips to live that happy life? How can i turn the switch??

I promise im not crazy or weird. I dont have any weird life expectations either. These are my inner thoughts and you probably couldnt tell looking at me or talking to me in public 😅

i just need some help on how to feel happy again, and how to keep it that way