Torn between two guys

If anyone has been through anything similar please give some advice!!!!

this is going to be long, so bare with me.

It all started when I started my job. I instantly liked my one coworker, I never have crushes, I wasn’t interested in dating, but, something about this guy…we’ll call him ken. Something about Ken I just instantly always liked. Ken isn’t perfect, I won’t go into detail but I saw a part of him that a lot of people didn’t. There is an age gap and he was higher up in the chain at work so I never imagined he would ever like me back, until he did. We ended up dating for about three months, never made it official and it was honestly a little messy because of work. I’ve been in two other relationships and when things ended, as horrible as it sounds, I was never really upset. But when I broke things off with Ken, I’ve never felt anything like that. It was the most painful, horrible couple of weeks. It doesn’t help that I still have to see him. It ended well honestly, it wasn’t messy and there was no drama it just wasn’t working. I can’t explain it but even now, I’ve never felt feelings for ANYONE ever like I feel for Ken, it’s this weird feeling and I honestly can’t explain it. I like him more then I’ve ever liked anyone. Cut to a few weeks after Ken and I broke up, my friend convinced me to start casually dating to help me get my mind off Ken, I didn’t think it was a great idea but she made me a dating profile. I talked to a few people but I met this guy…I’ll call him jake. If I wrote down what the perfect boyfriend would be on paper, jake is what it would be. He has absolutely every quality that I was looking for and he is such a gentleman, hard worker, respectful, he’s funny ugh he’s literally perfect. I wasn’t looking for anything quite that serious but it would be stupid for me to pass up a guy like him. Not to mention we agree on most of the big things in life, political views, religion, etc. For a little while I forgot about Ken and was just really happy with jake, but I started to notice that as perfect as jake was, I didn’t feel that same strong feeling that I felt for ken. As much as I try I can’t feel the same about jake. Maybe it will take some time but I liked Ken so so so much from the second I met him and it just doesn’t feel the same with jake. I am really upset with myself. I am with literally THE PERFECT MAN and I’m stuck on this guy from my past, who wasn’t perfect, who didn’t always treat me the best, soemone I can’t really be with, but here I am, stuck on him😩

Like I said, I still see him at work, but not everyday. We’ve kept things very professional and it honesty didn’t affect anything at work but it does suck having to be around him sometimes

I don’t know what to do. Jake is a great guy and I literally wish more then anything in the world that I could have that feeling with him like I had with Ken.

Why am I stuck on a guy who honestly was kinda shitty to me? I mean obviously as shitty as he was at times Ken also treated me the best, he seemed to understand me more then jake. Idk

I feel like something is wrong with me, I’m with this perfect guy and I feel like I’m forcing myself to like him. What do you think is happening?