Advice needed

So i few years back i met somebody online got into a relationship with em then came here to the usa (i was living in europe). When i came here everything was good for about a week at most. i was living with him n his family and for some odd reason his sisters would be idk really disrespectful and rude etc and he would be on my ass for everything. i was at home 24/7 since i didn’t know how to get around n i wasn’t able to work cause i was on a tourist visa but he would still say i’m cheating everyday. stuff got worse n worse with his family and he would always back them up. i got hit by him multiple times, got jumped by his sister and her baby daddy, got a knife pulled to my neck, also got sent to an ice detention center cause i didn’t wanna basically tell the police exactly what he did to me so they arrested me instead even tho i called them for my own safety. more stuff happened but i’m just summing it up. anyways this was so dumb of me but this was my first relationship and he had broke my phone and everything i couldn’t contact my parents or nothing till like almost a year after. they didn’t allow me to leave the country cause i had my court date. the sister would still come to harass me and stuff i tried to get a protective order but they didn’t help me to get it. anyways fast forward like 2 years later i’m married to him for some reason but today we basically had a talk about everything and he apologized for being “mean” and for some reason now i’m here at 4 am balling my eyes out because i haven’t healed from all this. i thought i did but i wouldn’t be like that if i did. i don’t know if i’m ever going to be able to fully forgive him for never having my back all those times. i wanna call my mom so bad but ik she’s dealing with more important stuff so idk kinda have to deal with it by myself. so ig my question is it fixable by therapy maybe or is it just done. if you have had a similar experience pls share it with me. Also please don’t say anything rude i’m not in a good place rn so yea

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