What would you guys do?

Like I’m seriously at my end rope here. My husband has a career. I don’t. I would Love to go to school and get my dream job but I have 3 kids and a stay at home mom. I have sacrificed my own job ( I do currently have ) and I do make good money except I never get to pick up because I am the only one home with the kids. I have no support, no help. It’s just me. All I have is him, and he’s gone for work a lot. My life is always put to the side and I’m currently crying as I’m typing this because it’s freaking sad. I don’t feel appreciated, I don’t feel acknowledged. His mother keeps saying he makes the money. I have to suck it all up, moms take care of kids dads work, I have to basically always stay at home with my kids since he makes the “ good money “ which is a joke!!!! I DESERVE MORE I ALSO DESERVE TO work and make money and live and I feel like a prisoner. I love my kids I do, but I also want more for myself. So the point of this is I can’t work, can’t pay my bills ( I have separate ones ) I don’t have extra money to just go spend like the kids need clothes, or even just to grab dinner somewhere. I sacrificed my life in a lot of ways to be able to make his job possible and I feel stuck. Like he complains if I even ask him to give me some extra money. He makes me feel so bad like I do so much and I feel like my whole life has personally been stripped away. I feel like I’m a child asking my dad for money. It makes me so sad. I struggle this is stressful for me. While he’s gone I’m doing everything as if I’m a single mom and that’s what I feel like at this point. Do you stay at home moms like how do you guys get $$ to spend or use? Does your partners help you? Or just give you some to just have?

My husband is just so over the top about money and he makes 5k WEEKLY. I’m just sad and alone and tired. I have his credit card to “ use “ but I have to ask to buy anything. The only thing he won’t complain on is If I use it for groceries ( and even that’s limited ) like he’ll complain if I spend too much for food. Which food is exspensive these days I can’t help if it totals 150/200 trying to feed 5 people in the home. Also gas. Which I don’t go no where much to waste a bunch of gas. Anything else is like I have to personally ask if it’s okay if I spend extra money on anything. He’ll usually say “ we don’t need “ kids can be growing out of their clothes and he’ll say “ they have clothes they are fine” . I just feel stuck please send advice send me your situstions hoe you guys do things in your relationships etc. thank you so much