Positive? Not sure how!

Would you guys say this is positive (2 lines) or negative (Bc one line is so faint). I will be 41 in July. Never had a child before. I did not think it was possible for us because my bf produces almost no semen due to medical reasons and he can’t cum when he’s inside me during sex (he has to masterbate and then right before he comes tries to stick it inside of me) and we only have sex once a week… if that. So as much as we wanted this I told him it was not realistic. But I’m 2 days late (I’m never ever late). So???? Maybe?!? I don’t want to get my hopes up too early but I’m kind of excited. 😀