I have no fight left anymore

Every time I get my feelings hurt or my husband does something that makes me upset, I second guess whether it’s even valid. Am I being a triggered idiot or do I have a right to be upset? To the point where I don’t even want to talk about it anymore, or work through it because I confuse myself and my memory sucks anyway.

Just feel like I’m never heard the way I need to be anyway. He just tells me he didn’t mean to and I’m like.. ok.. you didn’t mean to but it still upset me.

Anyone else feel like there’s no more fight left in you? What is this feeling?

It feels hopeless but then he acts sweet again and I forget about it.

I used to be pretty anxious, I’d always try to fix everything and was the only one doing it.

I could NVER go to bed upset with him or him with me. It would be impossible for me to leave an uncomfortable feeling still there in fear of abandonment. Now I pretend to be asleep so I don’t have to talk at all.

I used to have so many words for how I felt, it all just feels unimportant, and pointless to me now.