Anxiety about my marriage??

Okay so I was married previously. I was 19, pregnant & we both just thought getting married was the right thing to do.

We divorced around our son’s first birthday because we mutually agreed we were just young & we weren’t the right person for each other. It had been over for a long time before we finally agreed on the divorce.

My husband and I now have one child together & another on the way.

I suffer from anxiety really intensely & being pregnant has made it 500x stronger.

I get horrible intrusive thoughts that I KNOW aren’t true when I’m not anxious, but during panic attacks I always think “well I must be having these thoughts for a reason.”

These thoughts include shit like:

-I don’t love my kids

-I don’t love my husband

-I’m not attracted to my husband

-I don’t want to have another baby

Etc.

Things I genuinely know are not true but when I’m in a bad headspace, it just gets me in a really bad place.

Now I want to say that my husband is literally THE MOST loving & amazing person I know. He’s kind, caring, handsome, a great dad, a great husband, never raises his voice, has never put a hand on me whatsoever, etc.

Before my ex husband, I was in an extremely abusive relationship for 3 years & have been diagnosed with PTSD related anxiety.

Lately, when I’m around my husband, my anxiety skyrockets into panic attacks. For literally no reason. The thoughts I mentioned above come into my head & I start to feel like I’ve made a huge mistake having kids, getting married, etc.

Has or does anyone else experience things like this?? Is there any advice you could give me?

I’m on Zoloft right now since I can’t take my usual anxiety meds while pregnant, but I can’t stand feeling this way anymore.

I feel so bad for my husband because he’s trying to be so supportive & helpful but I can’t stop feeling scared around him for NO REASON.